Music...Food....Music...Food...Musi FOOD

Ok people. Dont hate me for not posting, because I already told you that I am horrible with blogging. I started this blog because i love to write, and I am fat. So the two of them together just make the perfect combination, right? I mean seriously, think of all of the books, websites, etc about fat girls who just need their story heard, they make a flipping fortune from them. If I am going to be 100% honest, then I want the same thing, other than making a forturne, but that would be pretty effing sweet too,  but really, I just want to get healthy, and keeping a blog will help me be at least consistent with my actions.  Maybe I will finally follow throught with some stuff. Ive been thinking a lot about what this blog is going to be, and I have decided that it cant just be my "journey to becoming a skinny bitch". My coworker and friend said that this year she is going to make the resolution to make more time for the things that she enjoys, and i love that, because i think that we get lost in our day to day lives and we forget about the things that we love, the things that we wish that we had more time to do, but really, dont we have time? I think about all of the things that i have always wanted to do, or to do more of, like camping and skiing, and fishing, but I always have some excuse not to do these things, and I am tired of it!! What is life if not an adventure? Life isnt a bunch of days and weeks and years strung together, or at least it shouldnt be, it has been for me though, until now. I pledge right here and now to do the things that I love to do, and no, I am not talking about men, which come on, I would totally love to do more of. I pledge to go to more concerts, which i am totally doing at the end of January.

I got this app on my phone that downloads all of my artists and tracks their concerts and then gives me updates, its a great app, except for when you plan a trip 3 hours out of town and then go on the artists website and find out they are playing in your home town two days later.... But whatever. I am going to the second show anyway...duh. Co-worker/friend x2 and I are making the trip out of town to see WAKEY! WAKEY! who, by the way, if you havent listened to them, you need to, because they are so flipping unbelievable (does saying 'flipping unbelievable make me sound less accountable?). Just saying. Anyway, we are going to make a weekend of it, and then they play on Sunday, so we are going to play hooky for half the day on Monday. I am so totally stoked ( do people still say that? Well I do).

Let's get back to this whole weight loss thing. I realize that it doesn't really count to make a blog about losing weight until you actually put a picture of yourself "before" and "after" on the page. I promise I will do this, but the thought of putting my picture on the internet for the entire world to see makes me a little queazy. I mean I obviously have put pictures on facebook of myself, but most of the picutres that I selectively put on that hideous website (we will get to that at a later date) are at good angles, and I look pretty, and semi skinny. Needless to say, I will need to be drunk to put a picture on this blog, which could be tonight, considering I have had 3 glasses of wine and intaking 1100 calories/day (including the wine).  We shall see. I know this sucker needs a crap ton of work, so it will get there in time. Like fine wine and a tight ass, it takes time.

So my first day of my diet, or as my mother calls it, "healthy eating for a lifetime" (gag) went really




well. The rest of that day, I ate a seriously killer salad that I made myself with cucumber, avocado, tomaoto and onion with a red wine vinaigrette. Did I mention I love to cook? Well, I do, and I especially love making healthy foods, they are so much more interesting because you can layer and protein with tons of flavor. Wow, ok, back on topic. I ate the lovely leftovers that night from New Years Eve, and holy crapoly, there are a ton more calories in saurkraut than I thought there were. I ate like 1/3 of a cup of that stuff and it was 143 calories! I had a bunch of calories leftover to use anyway so i splurged and ate a couple of bites of bbq ribs. OMG they are so good. I have been making smoothies with just bananas and other fruit that I have lying around, and they have given me so much energy!! I love it.


I am going  now because I feel like I am ranting, so I have worked out for three days straight so far, and I have woken up feeling super refreshed and amazing, so I am going to keep it up, because nothing is better than hoping out of bed and turning on some tunes, and I have done that In a long time.

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Day one of my journey to becoming a skinny chick again has been so far so good. It's only 10 am and I started the day off right. I ate egg whites with mushrooms with asparagus, and only like a table spoon of shredded Swiss. It was divine, well as far as breakfast foods go anyway. Around 9:30 I had a bit of a hunger pain in my tummy, so I satisfied that evil wench with half of a cucumber. I've also had two large cups of coffee, but I use sweet n low and no fat half and half!! I know what you're thinking, that I should probably cut some of my caffeine intake down a little, however, that's not going to happen, ok? A girl needs her coffee, and without it, to put it bluntly, I'm a total bitch if I don't get my caffeine. I will post again after work, but for now, enjoy your day!

The Start of Something New

There is nothing worse than feeling horrible while at a party because all of the beautiful people around you are complaining about how their clothes are too big, and  OMG! this is a SMALL! Sometimes I want to punt those people across the room like the mean man punted Baxter, but then I think, jesus, I want to have those problems so bad! And I guess I sort of used to. I used to be the not skinny but not fat girl with the curvy ass and big boobs that got those pervy guys' attention. For about 4 years now, I make the same New Year Resolution and tell myself THIS is the year that I am going to shed the Freshman 15 that I gained 5 years ago, and the extra 10 pounds I gained after my first heartbreak, and the numerous amounts of pounds that just gathered in my hips, gut, and my already round ass over the years. This year, I am not making a resolution, however, I am going to make that leap into healthiness. This  year will be the year that I can be in a bikini again, and this year will be the year that I will get laid without feeling like a beached whale, or without being incredibly intoxicated (on his part). For me, with weight gain came the unfortunate self esteem issues, and they have grown with my waist line. I am tired of feeling gross and unattractive, no more will I sit in on a Friday night eating and drinking my feelings away, no body puts baby in a corner, with a candy bar(s) and a bottle of wine. This blog will be  my journey through working out, eating healthy, and most importantly how it will change my outlook on life. This blog will also most likely become a cluster f**K different posts as well, so if I stray, stick with me. I am really not that great at keeping up with writing blogs, but I am really going to try this time, kinda like I am going to REALLY try to get my ass to stop giggling. So as soon as I get my flubber off of the treadmill every night, and as soon as I can catch my breath, I will park myself in front of my wireless keyboard and iPad, most likely with a glass of cucumber water and one carrot stick (what, thats what they eat in the movies)   and let you know what incredible thing I did that day, and what I ate, because lets be honest, I love food, and no matter what I will always be excited by what I will eat that day. It will be my journey with getting healthy on a busy schedule. Wish me luck, and tune in for the next post.