The Start of Something New

There is nothing worse than feeling horrible while at a party because all of the beautiful people around you are complaining about how their clothes are too big, and  OMG! this is a SMALL! Sometimes I want to punt those people across the room like the mean man punted Baxter, but then I think, jesus, I want to have those problems so bad! And I guess I sort of used to. I used to be the not skinny but not fat girl with the curvy ass and big boobs that got those pervy guys' attention. For about 4 years now, I make the same New Year Resolution and tell myself THIS is the year that I am going to shed the Freshman 15 that I gained 5 years ago, and the extra 10 pounds I gained after my first heartbreak, and the numerous amounts of pounds that just gathered in my hips, gut, and my already round ass over the years. This year, I am not making a resolution, however, I am going to make that leap into healthiness. This  year will be the year that I can be in a bikini again, and this year will be the year that I will get laid without feeling like a beached whale, or without being incredibly intoxicated (on his part). For me, with weight gain came the unfortunate self esteem issues, and they have grown with my waist line. I am tired of feeling gross and unattractive, no more will I sit in on a Friday night eating and drinking my feelings away, no body puts baby in a corner, with a candy bar(s) and a bottle of wine. This blog will be  my journey through working out, eating healthy, and most importantly how it will change my outlook on life. This blog will also most likely become a cluster f**K different posts as well, so if I stray, stick with me. I am really not that great at keeping up with writing blogs, but I am really going to try this time, kinda like I am going to REALLY try to get my ass to stop giggling. So as soon as I get my flubber off of the treadmill every night, and as soon as I can catch my breath, I will park myself in front of my wireless keyboard and iPad, most likely with a glass of cucumber water and one carrot stick (what, thats what they eat in the movies)   and let you know what incredible thing I did that day, and what I ate, because lets be honest, I love food, and no matter what I will always be excited by what I will eat that day. It will be my journey with getting healthy on a busy schedule. Wish me luck, and tune in for the next post.